I'm not sure when it happened* but my life in the present is based almost fully around the potential future.
This refers in part to the usual vet student things such as already planning how I will be spending my time from June through September, but unfortunately has also taken turns such as "I can't spend time updating my blog because then I would fall behind in writing summary sheets for the part II final exam, and if that happens I'll have less time to blah blah blah more emo whingeing here."
Interestingly, telling myself that I can't do something until I've finished doing something else, and effectively trying to put everything else in life to one side until I've finished the top priority item, just means my efforts to get the top priority done become paralysed, since I spend more time thinking about how to do what I should be doing (and from there visualising the series of unfortunate events that will follow if I do the wrong thing) than I actually spend in action.
So, take this post to be my affirmative action. Life goes on, and it can't always be put on hold for exams. Trying to do so - as I have done for every single one of those fscking part I papers - feels like the revision equivalent of crash dieting: it might make a difference for a short time, but ultimately, the more important thing is finding a way for it to be an everyday part of life.
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*I lie. It happened at the start of 4th year.
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